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Ovarian cancer will be diagnosed in 1 of 72 women; 14,000 will die. Please know the symptoms and risk factors: read Outshine: An Ovarian Cancer Memoir. Books at www.amazon.com. ALL PROCEEDS GO TO GYNECOLOGIC CANCER RESEARCH. I am a member of Rave Reviews Book Club and Rave Writer's International Society of Authors, and Patient Leadership Council for Tesaro, Inc. I WILL NOT USE YOUR EMAIL ADDRESS FOR ANY OTHER PURPOSE THAN CONTACTING YOU DIRECTLY. ALL ORIGINAL CONTENT COPYRIGHT 2011 THROUGH 2018.

Sunday, July 8, 2018


It breaks my heart when I read about anyone who has cancer, however when it affects our young people it is the saddest. My first response is one of shock and I think or say, "Oh no," which is the first stage of grief. I try to understand why, but I have never come up with a satisfactory answer.

According to the Dana Farber Institute at Boston Children's Cancer and Blood Disorders Center, "Ovarian tumors account for one percent of all malignant tumors found in children between birth and age 17."

The cure rate is much higher than those diagnosed as adults. At Dana Farber 100% of the ovaries are saved so these young girls can be fertile someday. 


Perhaps many of you are familiar with the following two cases of Natalie Cosman and Paige LaRoas. Natalie was 7 years old when she was diagnosed with ovarian cancer. The young girl was having severe stomach pains. The doctors first treated her for constipation, and then in the ER she was sent for a CT scan believing the pain was from her appendix. That is when a 7cm cyst on one of her ovaries was discovered. 

Paige LaRosa was diagnosed with ovariian cancer when 11 years old. Her symptoms were extreme fatigue and loss of appetite. Unfortunatley her ovaries were not saved nor were any eggs harvested. https://www.findatopdoc.com/Women-s-Health/Two-Brave-Young-Girls-Overcome-Ovarian-Cancer

Newsweek  Bradley Lowery

The most common cancers in our youth are:

      Brain and spinal cord tumors
      Wilms tumor
      Bone cancer

Our youth with cancer face different challenges than we adults. Fertility and hormones is a major one. Their sense of self-esteem due to hair loss, fatigue, and other chemotherapy side effects might be compromised. The days in the hospital and frequent doctor appointments can well interfere with their social life. Normal activities may be too much due to fatigue, nausea, and diarrhea. Some suffer from lower self-esteem due to their body image and if their illness is causing major financial concerns, they might feel guilty or responsible.

Ethan Jostad Foundation

Yet, it is amazing how resilient our youth can be. They are often courageous and can smile or laugh. Certainly they have their times of sorrow and fear. 
Once they have finished treatment, many of them develop a greater sensitivity tothe needs of others, have improved relationships, and a greater world view.

Here are some resources and groups available for our young:
     https://www.lls.org/  (Leukemia and lymphoma society)
     www.dana-farber.org › ... › Support Services & 
              Amenities › Young Adult Program

Friday, June 22, 2018


Are you as fascinated with clouds as I am? I find them mysterious, ever-changing, frightening, and beautiful. Ovarian cancer is also mysterious, changing our lives, can be quite frightening, and is far from beautiful...it is ugly.

There are ten types of clouds: stratus, cirrus, cumulus, stratocumulus, altocumulus, nimbostratus, altostratus, cirrocumulus, cirrostratus, and cumulonimbus. Ovarian cancer has several forms each with its own genetic code.

Yes, I looked up the information. https://www.thoughtco.com/types-of-clouds-recognize-in-the-sky-4025569  I wanted to learn about them and see how they may or may not be similar to us humans, you and me. I will include just a few photos from this site, but I encourage you to go to the link above and see photos of all the cloud types. How do we react, cope, and change when diagnosed with cancer?

Cumulus clouds are usually the first clouds we see in the morning. Their tops are round and puffy but the bottom portion is often dark and flatter. They are nick-named fair weather clouds because they develop on bright sunny mornings.

      There are those people who may appear to be happy, positive and have a sunny 
       disposition, but in reality they are not always that way. Many of us try to keep a
       happy face on, yet fear and/or anger might be hidden away.

Stratus clouds hang low near the ground; are grey and gloomy; often confused with fog. There is often a light mist or drizzle with them.

     We all have our gloomy moods from time to time, but be wary if you always have a 
      grey cloud hanging over your head. To always be sad or fearful is NOT healthy nor
      help our bodies try to heal.

The low, puffy clouds that are gray and white with blue patches of sky in between are the stratocumulus clouds having an almost honeycomb look.

      Happy people like to be around happy people. Misery sometimes loves company of
      like-minded people. It is best to be with positive, wise, and responsible people when
      facing a serious illness of cancer.

Nicknamed "sheep backs" or "mackeral skies" are officially called altocumulus clouds. They remind me of a lot of cotton balls scattered across the sky. Thunderstorms are quite likely to develop when these clouds appear in the morning sky.

     There are people who just seem to bring on trouble. Perhaps they might actually enjoy
     stirring up problems, the thunderstorms. It is usually best to avoid such people. If you
     are one looking for the magical cure ignoring advice and treatment from your medical team,  
     then a dangerous health might well be on the horizon.

Nimbostratus are rain clouds we are all familiar with. Their thick dark layer blocks out any sunshine.

     People with a darkness about them are often depressed, ill, or have a mental problem. 
     Problems often surround them and they do not know how or are incapable of 
     bringing sunlight into their lives. There are physicians, nurses, therapists, social
     workers, family and friends always available to help you.

Altostratus are low-lying gray clouds that cover the whole sky. However, one can see the sun thinly veiled behind them.

     Those individuals that are struggling with depression or sadness know there is a light
     which will help lift them up. No matter how bleaklife might seem, always search 
     for the light so a storm does not develop.

Buttermilk skies are officially called cirrocumulus clouds. They can look like grains of sand to some. They are formed in the higher atmosphere from ice crystals and are not as commonly seen.

      Individuals that are scattered with their thoughts and endeavors, have trouble staying at  
      task are not always someone we can depend on. Hopefully such scatterness is short-lived 
      and is not a frequent part of one's behavior. It is important to stay focused on those
      treatments, people, and events that can help us.

White and almost transparent are the cirrostratus clouds. Often a ring will show around the moon or the sun.

      Spirituality may be the strong part of these people. They tend to glow, smile, and 
      give people around them a sense of peace. Keeping your faith in the forefront of each
      day will help you have the strength to get through each day.

One of my favorite cloud formation is what I call "mare's tails" are actually cirrus clouds. They are high in the sky formed by ice crystals.

      Playfulness is a major part of these people. Yet for that very reason they may not see or   
        hear the storm coming.  Humor, laughter release powerful endorphins, yet one must not 
        be childlike and ignore the important and more serious parts of life.

Cumulonimbus clouds are commonly referred to thunder clouds. To some they look like cauliflower as they enlarge. A thunderstorm is to be sure coming.

      There are people who are larger than life. They can be domineering, loud, and even
      threatening. Be gentle, soft, and kind to yourself and others.

We each have our personality traits, moods, strengths, and weaknesses. Next time you look up and see a cloud formation, see if you can identify it and how it does or does not fit with you.
                                                What kind of a cloud(s) are you?

I am cirrostratus and a stratocumulus: I am spiritual and like to be around people who are like me. I have a little cirrus in me who loves to play and bring out the child in me.

Ovarian cancer's most common symptom is bloating. If it occurs for more than two weeks, seek out medical advice.

Sunday, June 10, 2018


There are those of us who struggle with fear, doubts, and the unknown. This is especially true for those dealing with a serious or life-threatening illness. Yet, I believe that if we seek love in the world around us, our gratefulness will help us to be healthier and more contented with life. 

We can find such love in the people around us, in nature, music, meditation or relaxation. 



 "Your thoughts, words, and deeds are painting the world around you."

    This quote by Jewel Diamond Taylor poignantly explains  not what life does to us, but how we react and interact in our world. Ms. Taylor well knows how the power of love and gratitude can help rise above any challenge when she lost her first-born son to cancer.

     From that experience she learned to turn her life around through her Christian beliefs. Her books and seminars teach about how we can each readh inner strength, overcome depression, and shift our thinking. She is considered the souldier of good. https://jeweldiamondtaylor.com/2016/04/28/meet-jewel-diamond-taylor-2/

When we are content, grateful, positive, smiling, and trusting then our bodies, minds, and spirits are relaxed and healthier. 

All the body's systems are in an environment to work more harmoniously and efficiently; our minds are free of cluttering thoughts and needless worries; and our relationship to God or a Higher Power is more profound.

I usually arise at 5:00 in the morning. I go into my office, open the blinds, and watch the sun rise. That is my time of surrounding myself with love and peace. I take slow, deep breaths, send prayers and say positive affirmations.

                This always prepares me for whatever the day might have in store for me.

      A good friend recently shared how she looks at three different photographs of family and nature each morning to start her day and each evening as she prepares for sleep. One photo makes her laugh; another one reinforces her appreciation for the beauty of nature; and the third photo reminds her of God's unconditional love.

                 "It is easier to breathe," my friend said. "I still have challenges 
                                        and problems to face, but life is smoother.

             Might I suggest that each morning and at each bedtime:
   1. Sit or lie down in a comfortable position.
   2. Breathe in and out three long slow breathes.
   3. Look at 3 photographs that lift your spirit, make you smile, and grow your gratitude.
   4. After a few minutes, arise and enjoy your day; or have a peaceful sleep.

As difficult and challenging life might be at times, we can learn from them and become 
                                       better and healthier people.

Ovarian cancer news: Immunotherpay is showing promise in many cancers. Here is a link with the very latest information: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OkaS6ZkPml0

Monday, June 4, 2018


I am honored and pleased to introduce you to Joan Noeldechen, an inspirational and gifted poet. 

She has poetry published in June Cotner's anthologies from 1995 through 2017/. She is sharing three of her poems that I hope you will find comforting, uplifting, and moving. I know she will welcome your comments below.

                               A SELECTION OF POEMS FOR HEALING
                                  BY JOAN NOELDECHEN


My womb rose
to the surgeon’s knife.
Before being cut,
it bled one last time
as if to play one last joke.
Childbearing time is
over for me.
There has never been a man who
had found me for more
than a quick encounter.
Never did they want
babies at my breast.
I was free of proving
myself worthy and
from passing on
my mother’s insanity.
I fell asleep
in the hands
of God
wondering if
he was taking
me out for good.
He was the only
man I could trust
to love me


Reflective Pool

But not forgotten
I have my faith
To keep myself
Bound together.
I am still a woman
And whole
In spite of the cancer beast.
Silently I pray
For strength
As they cut into my
I release my life
As I fall into darkness.


You were my safe haven
until cancer took away
your drive and energy.
I couldn't care for you
any longer.
We were torn apart
before you left this earth.
I miss your shining light,
like a ball of fire
over a peaceful calm.

Joan Noeldechen is an accomplished poet; listed in Who's Who; graduate of Flagler College; and has many of her works published in June Cotner's anthologies. She is the author of several books.


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Friday, June 1, 2018


As many of you know, I love flowers. Gardening is one of my favorite activities from picking out the flower, preparing the soil, planing and then tending to them. There is not a flower that I do not like, but I do have a certain affection for roses, pansies, hydrangeas, bougainvillea, and daisies.

Each flower has a meaning which adds even more to their beauty and my love for them. I am sharing just a few lessons that I hope will bring joy, peace, and beauty to your life.


Roses mean promise, hope, and new beginnings. Its thorns symbolic defense and loss. A yellow rose symbolizes joy, protection, and mature love.
The Romans believed that white roses lost their color when the tears of Venus fell on the flower while mourning the loss of her beloved, Adonis. (https://www.teleflora.com/meaning-of-flowers/rose)


Daffodils usually bloom with bright yellow flowers in March and April. They symbolize new birth and renewal. According to Welch legend, the first person to see a daffodil will be blessed with wealth for the next 12 months. A single daffodil represents misfortune. (https://teleflora.com/meaning-of-flowers/daffodils).


The pansy was used for secret courting in Victorian England. It was placed in what is called a tussie mussie, which was a bunch of herbs wrapped in a doiley with some flowers. The message of the pansy is one of love, thinking of, or missing a person.  (https://www.flowermeaning.com/pansy-flower-meaning)


Hydrangeas have special importance to me because my grandfather had two large ones in his garden. As a little girl I loved to put my face near the large blossoms even though there was no fragrance. This flower means heartfelt emotion, gratitude. In Victorian times, these flowers were associated with boastfulness and vanity because of the large flowers produced from such few and small seeds. (https://www.ftd.com/blog/share/hydrangea-meaning-and-symbolism)

Spring has finally arrived after a long winter. I invite you to plant some flowers, pick them, and just simply enjoy the flowers all around you. What are your favorite flowers and why?