Yesterday I had my blood drawn to measure my CA125, which is the marker for cancer. Even though the test is not 100% reliable, it is the one we have. I am feeling fine and have no symptoms of the cancer returning, yet I feel anxious as I wait to learn the results. I am grateful that I now see the oncologist every 6 months and can say that I am a 3 1/2 year survivor, but for the last week I have been more tired with increased indigestion, and more general aches and pains. I see the oncologist on the 29th of Feb. and I anticipate that these symptoms will be diagnosed as stress, not cancer. That is the positive energy I am sending out.
Every day I pray and meditate that either the cancer won't come back; or if it does come back, that I will face it with dignity and courage; and that my light will outshine the cancer. Those of us who have faced a terminal or serious illness, are uniquely changed for the rest of our lives. We are hyper-alert to any physical change in our body, which is a double-edged sword. We might communicate with our physicians more, but on the other hand, we might create more stress for ourselves by worrying about every change, small or big. Sometimes it is difficult to balance between the two.
On the last two blogs I talked about the power of touch, both physical and spiritual. It is the hugs as well as the prayers from family and friends that uplift and sustain me. I also receive wonderful support from you, my blog readers, and those I communicate with on inspire.com. God bless you all.
- Karen Ingalls
- My journey as a writer began as a child. I wrote poems and short stories which were my way of dealing with various life changing events. I am a member of Rave Reviews Book Club. Follow me on Twitter @KIngallsAuthor www.facebook.com/KarenIngalls, and you can find my books at www.amazon.com. My first book is Outshine: An Ovarian Cancer Memoir which received two awards. All proceeds are donated to gynecologic cancer research. My second book is a novel Novy's Son, about one man's attempt to find love and acceptance from his father. This is an all too common problem in our society. My third book, Davida: Model and Mistress of Augustus Saint-Gaudens is about the love affair between this great American sculptor and his model. ALL ORIGINAL CONTENT COPYRIGHT 2011 THROUGH 2017.